I my me, lolita.

Since I’ve recently got a lot of new followers, i would like to take a moment and talk about a few things about myself and my feels.

I live alone, I pay my bills, I work hard, I don’t have family, I don’t want handouts or sympathy, I’ve slept in the park alone before.

No one should compare anyone’s life to anyone else’s, nor should we have to justify our motives on that level.

After all the hardships in my life, I accept the one time i ever feel pretty is when i wear lolita and Japanese street fashions. So, I eat like garbage, don’t buy basic household things and scrape my money together for the one thing i truly enjoy.

I’ve been taunted all of my childhood and I really don’t want to hear people complaining about me being honest about how I feel about myself as asking for pats on the back, because I really don’t care if people do or don’t. I just want to express myself. That is lolita to me; self expression. It’s not, how pretty others see you as; it’s how pretty you see yourself. If you feel ashamed in lolita because you think it makes you look like a baby, that’s okay. Don’t wear it. If you feel ashamed to wear lolita because people will think you look like a baby, fuck them. Grab your balls, and wear the shit out of your shit. It doesn’t matter what people say, it matters how you see yourself. Love the shit out of yourself.

On replicas; I won’t sit here and condemn people for wearing them. I won’t deny having replicas. If the one lolita dress you ever wanted is out of your reach or size and you buy a single replica in your life you don’t deserve any hatred. If you have ten replicas in your closet each costing $100 then you really need to stop and reconsider what you’re doing. $100 for a replica? Second hand doesn’t even cost that most of the time, and put that money to support indie designers and learning to coord differently so that you can wear non-brand. Often people with loads of brand are basic and cut out; and that’s okay too, but you don’t have to be that way. No one has to be anything, and neither are better or right.

Let’s talk about my closet. The first dress I bought right from the brand was AP Jewelry Jelly because I was saving hard for months and suddenly AP Japan English site listed 50% off sale. The second was AP creamy mami collab; my first completely full priced brand item. Everything else came from comm sales, trades, and auctions.

I’ll also take a moment to talk about materialism. Want is not get. Of course nearly everyone wants a million dollars, but that doesn’t mean we are unhappy without it. Earning something feels incredible next to dripping in hand outs.

Let’s now discuss how “shallow” I supposedly am. I do not value my lolita items more than I might value my priorities. Lolita feels worthless next to enjoying life. It’s such a grandeur statement, but to have a stable job, marry a man, and become a mother feels more valuable to me that any physical thing ever could. I can see feminist tumblr throwing their arms in the air at me for this, but this is me, and this is the life i want. I believe in equal rights and individualism.

I can’t see how any of this should offend people. I really can’t.

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I my me, lolita.

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